It makes me sad that I wasn't able to party with Tey and her/our friends. I miss the squad, I miss everyone! I should really be off there, drinking all night long. I had my escape planned, but then Mom decided that I'll leave for Filinvest on Monday. Hence, I can't step a foot or two outside the house without her supervision. Ano ako, grade 1? I just laid on my bed all day and waited for my friends to post their pictures. Now I'm rotting with envy. Thank you, Gail. Haha. Apart from that, Gail's debut is still at stake. Mom's having second thoughts. Well, what's a little girl got to do? She's the boss, I'm just the daughter. Haha! Aside from that, I still don't have a bikini and a gift for her and if I don't get moolah to buy 'em, I'll most prolly won't go. Sorry G! :P I just realized how sucky my summer is. I barely go out, I just go to school and have to go home pronto. I haven't gone by the beach in a while and all I've been doing is bond with Multiply and TV. C'mon, can't I get a taste of the summer breeze, sand, and salty beach? I doubt if I could really taste the first two, na-da. So, our computer has been on for exactly 24 hours now. I still am not done downloading some Tree Hill torrents, I badly have to catch up. Anyone who wants to buy me a DVD? (Hello Elle!)

By the way, Meg's been asking me to make a new inspirational entry but I can't dig something out of my mind. I'm not feeling really melodramatic today, though "this person" and I have been talking about things and issues that really made me cry. To sum up what I really feel, let me put it this way: it's really hard when you know what makes/will make you happy but you can't do anything about it. It's almost there, right on the tip of my finger, only a step away.. BUT I STILL CAN'T HAVE IT. What the heck, what else am I supposed to do? I already gave everything I could. Now that's unfair, "this person" is unfair.

Before I cry, I must say this blog goodbye.
One more thing.. Since I'm gaya gaya, I also decided that I will no longer drink scratch that. I WILL DRINK A LITTLE LESS (haha) because I really want to change. And I don't want to be a wild animal again, since that happens to me all the time. Idol ko talaga si Elle! Good night!