State of real happiness

Life is a learning process. In this process, we learn how to care, to love, to give more than what we can, to get hurt, to be unselfish and to sacrifice. We learn that regardless of the good things we have done, some of it are just not enough. We may have given what other people need (and want), but we can't latch on to what we ought to get hold of. The thought of it convinced me that in a way, this process is unfair; that life is unfair; and that God is unfair. Then suddenly, a lightning hit me and I realized I was wrong. No matter how many times we stumble and fall, we should neither put God to question nor lay our downfalls into other people's doors. Whatever those failures are, no matter how big or small.. Are not under anybody's responsibility. We are the only one under obligation with whatever that has turned out of our life. We have misfortunes, we have imperfections but it's never really unfair. 8 or 9 billion people in this world, just like me, thinks/thought that life is/was not just. But just a thought, God can never make our lives perfect, He can never give us what we want because if we have all we've ever asked for, we won't experience the pain of not having it. Then, we won't ever learn. It's not more of being unjust, it's more of being fair to everyone else by giving us a chance to learn and a space to get better.

In our life, we smash into different kinds of people. People that'll give us snickers, joy, happiness and sometimes unlucky -- we deal with people who will give us miseries. Each and everyone has a purpose. Some brings us pain for us to fall, to get hurt, to cry and be lonely. Regardless of the bad things it can cause us, pain still has a good purpose deep down within. It helps us to smoke out virtues, gives us a chance to get to know ourselves more and makes us strong until we master the art of letting go. But in the face of all troubles, there are still people who will keep on putting smile to our faces, who will keep on lighting up our days, and people who will do their best to let the sun shine after the rain. They are God's tools of letting us find the key to happiness. It comes in many forms - in the feeling you get when you get high grades in your quizzes, when you look so good getting all dolled up, when you've found a way of earning $$$, when you get to have someone else's iTouch for a day, when you drink Taro Ice; in the promise of hope renewed, and in the company of good friends.

It's never true that life ends where heartaches begin. Though we may have lost important things or people in our lives, something or someone so much better will be brought upon our hands. Yes, pain have become a huge part of our lives. We expect it to always be there because we can hardly remember a time in our life when it wasn't. But then one day, despite all the wounds and despite being broken, we will feel something else. Something that feels wrong but really is right. Something that is unexpected, unfamiliar, unusual. We realize we're back on track, we're whole again, we're flying high and feels like walking on air, amidst all the imperfections we find no reason to complain, we can laugh like we never even cried, we feel thrilled plus sunny plus sparkling and at this point, we feel contentment. We knew that feeling, it was just taken away. But then, at that certain moment, we would look at ourselves and smile realizing we're happy. We're really happy :)